enjoying serendipity (look away)

I confess hereby that I do not know what serendipity (let alone serendipitous) means and I do it minutes before I look it up.
I am doing it in that same language in which I do not know what serendipity means and in which my beta-version wrote his love letters years ago, for the same reason.
But even as then, it is in my hands to still my desire.

Actually,
I may know what serendipity means.
I do not know what 'serendipity' means.
I am going to look it up.
I am knowing serendipity.